Day 3: Excusing Oneself from Responsibility

I'm up early! 6am!

It's great to be up early again!

Already feeling accomplished.

It's the little things y'know?!

They make all the difference.

I noticed I'm already wanting to go back on my self-promise of going out door knocking today, my backchat excuse is just to wait until the new year because I'm going to out of town anyway so if I set appointments, it'll be a waste BUT this is invalid, as I can simply communicate that with the prospect, and I haven't done much in my business in the past 2 months, let's start now, today!

It's settled.

Fascinating how the mind works.

It'll do anything in it's power to stop you from changing.

We have to be equal to it's persuasiveness.

Persuading self to not listen and do what is best, to get out there and share this tool with those that truly need it and help others and make a real difference in the world.

Imagine if we equalized our persuasiveness to the mind?!

The mind knows you better than you know you.

It knows all the weak spots to exploit which is why we must strengthen all those spots of weakness, so that we have no weak points and can stand in all storms.

It'll be great to get out there today, it's been too long.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to break my self-promise which is weakening my self-trust.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see, realize and understand that self-trust is one of the principles for a reason, this one point can make or break you.

I realize that no self-trust = no success.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to avoid the work.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to make excuses to avoid door knocking.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use the excuse that my wife needs me to stay home to care for her because she is pregnant and to help out with Stellar.

I realize that I'm better off being out there and bringing home the dough because that alone will take stress off of her.

I realize that men just need to focus on one thing and are great at focusing in on one singular focused activity which should be making money, building business.

I realize that the faster I do this, the faster I will be able to leverage a team and build the business.

I realize that all the bullshit I put myself through in terms of excuses or justifications will be what I need to support my team with in the future at that point.

I realize that I need to walk my points here and now so that I can effectively support my team later.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to make all the excuses in the world to avoid the work.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not live the words of the principles and waffle in my integrity and not stay solid within what is best for all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to put my selfish needs before the needs of children that are struggling as we speak.

Self-Correction as Self-Commitment

I commit myself to get out there today and even if it's not a full day, to get my feet wet again and get used to being out there and making it happen!

I commit myself to get at least one family to sign up!

I commit myself to get the wheel of momentum moving again today!

Day 2: Trying to Avoid Door-to-Door Sales

For the past two months, November and this month December.

I have been avoiding being active through justification.

I have been avoiding what I need to do.

I have been avoiding the hard thing.

The hard thing which would develop me into the person I need to be.

I have been looking for an easier path.

I was on getting results in October and then I switched gears and now the numbers are not pretty.

After getting on a call with my mentor, we decided that I need to get back to door-to-door sales.

I used justification as to why door-to-door sales isn't the way, why it doesn't work.

Door-to-door is undeniable.

I just have to put in the work.

And eventually I will develop myself to a point where it just makes sense to duplicate myself.

I could get to a point where I am making $10,000.00+ a month and then it would just be natural for me to recruit others to join me.

I can see that.

No one wants to grind it out.

I can see how I am choosing not to get better in my presentation so that I can justify that it doesn't work and quit.

All successful people put in the work first and then duplicated themselves as a natural progression.

People nowadays want to believe that we do not have to put in the work in order to get to success.

It's as silly as asking a bodybuilder how to get his body in 30 days, after he put in years to get the body he has.

Imagine knocking hundreds of doors 6 days a week for years, that is what is required to succeed in sales, specifically.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to time loop within the pattern of jumping from one lead generation to another.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not accept and allow myself to see, realize and understand the fact that if I can just stick to one form of lead generation such as door-to-door marketing, I will eventually succeed within it but will never succeed within anything if I keep waffling between different things.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to self-sabotage.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see, realize and understand that not being able to focus or willing to focus on one singular thing is a program that is keeping me from succeeding.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fuck up my momentum that I was creating.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to break the promise with myself that I would stick to door-to-door as a foundation of my business.

I realize that door-to-door is the foundation of my business, it must be, but I am not letting it be that, it doesn't make sense for it not to be the foundation of my business, without a foundation, I will not be able to build anything on top of it.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give myself evidence of door-to-door not being able to work so that I could then use that "evidence" to justify why I should do something else.

I realize that the numbers do not lie and my numbers are or have been shit since I stopped door-to-door.

I realize that door-to-door is my personal key to salvation, it may not be for everyone and it may not be the right timing for someone else but it is the key for me to get to my personal next level.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not have urgency, to think that I could put off the work required to make it happen.

Self-Correction as Self-Commitment

I commit myself to re-focus my foundation of my business as door-to-door and to start tomorrow, moving my rest day from Sunday to Christmas day, that way I put in 6 days for the week and get myself back on track, not using or waiting for the new year as an excuse to re-start.

Day 1: Social Anxiety

Yesterday I made a last minute plans to go to a networking event but when I got to the place, I made excuses not to go inside, I made the excuse that it was a bad venue and I left.

In reality, I chickened out. I should've just gone in and made some new friends but I did not.

I gave into my fears, I gave into my ego.

I let my mind convince me that I was better off just leaving.

Even though I drove all the way out there.

And I hadn't done much throughout the day.

Social anxiety.

I'm going to from now on make more of an effort to get someone to go with me, this way I am not only guaranteed to attend the event but I'm also spending quality time with one of my contacts, this requires some planning ahead, so from now on I'm going to schedule events 24 hours in advance and then immediately try and find someone to go with.

It's a great solution.

Something to keep in mind about this too though is that I don't usually chicken out with networking events because most have a wide open venue but this one was cramped and awkward and it was bad enough for me to make the excuse to just leave which is not okay but it was the choice I made and quite frankly, I don't think I would ever go back to that particular event unless I had someone to go with, simply because of the awful choice of venue.

Something that was awkward was when I initially decided to go in to check it out, I sat down by myself and then the core group hosts came in behind me and sat down right in front of me, I realized this and got up and left. Instead of just acknowledging them and sitting with them. I went into self-judgment of me sitting alone, me being there by myself and them being a party of around 5. I was thinking I wished I was not alone, I wish I had brought someone with me and to meet there.

I did notice in the attendee list that my friend Pam was supposed to attend but I didn't see her.

I guess I could've texted her and asked if she was on the way...

I also realize that I knew the host, Simon. He attended one of my very first events that I hosted in Miami Beach years ago, I hadn't seen him since, he never texted me back nor attend another one of my events.

I was also annoyed that the host arrived late, I got there just before six o'clock and they go there about 6:15.

People don't take anything seriously.

Living hedonistic lives.

Nothing wrong with hedonism but when that is your entire life, it's problematic, there must be balance of hedonism and stoicism.

Also, why does hedonism have to be defined as promiscuity, excessive alcohol drinking, doing drugs, etc.?

These things can take control of you very easily, why take the risk?

Because the reward is seemingly very exquisite. It's like the siren that tricks you with it's beauty but in reality it is anything but beautiful.

Best just to avoid unless you have insane self-discipline which most people do not.

I say all this because I noticed Simon immediately upon sitting down ordered himself a drink, seemed like he drove to the spot as well and I overheard one of the girls saying she attended a Diddy party in the past.

So many red flags.

I just had to leave.

So I did.

Let's re-define hedonism as playing with our children, creating new things, sober socializing, etc and also introduce some stoicism into our lives for balance.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to make all these judgments toward these people whom for the most part I do not even know.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to pre-judge others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge instead of meet.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to put on more stress onto my wife for driving all the way out there and not even attending the event.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge Simon.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think I am superior to those people.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think I'm superior to people that drink alcohol.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think I'm superior to people that define their hedonism as promiscuity, excessive alcohol drinking, doing drugs, etc.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think I'm superior to people that do not balance their hedonism with stoicism.

I realize that If I am in any way judging others, I am in some way judging myself and I may not see where it just may not be obvious where I am judging myself or I may just not be being self-honest.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not give them a chance and myself a chance to equalize to my fellow human in the act of meeting and shaking hands and getting to know each of them.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to let my mind dictate my actions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to justify not attending the event when I could've easily just attended.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself for what I wear which is a formal dresswear with a tie as being tacky or overdressed instead of embracing the symbol of which it represents which is responsibility but because others around me view responsibility as tacky, I get self-conscious about it.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to choose fear instead of choosing life.

When and as I see myself choosing fear, I stop and breathe and choose life.

I commit myself to plan ahead of events and try and find someone to go with so as to avoid this type of thing happening altogether and also hitting two birds with one stone in connecting with one of my contacts as well.

I commit myself to if I am unable to find someone to go with me, to simply breath and choose life and walk through my fear.

I commit myself to if I feel fear in these moments to get creative, stop thinking and become aware of me as life as equality and oneness as breath and create, this is what life is all about, being creative and fruitful.